The Distraction: By Lissa Borchers

Lately I've been distracted. I think I am really just stressed out. I have a lot to do for work and I keep falling behind. In fact, instead of grading the 63 essays that have been waiting for me for over a week, I'm writing this blog. I know I am doing it to myself, but I can't stop putting it off. I will be at parent/teacher conferences for many hours today, so my goal is to get started on the pile, and as soon as I am done writing this I think I officially run out of things I can do to avoid the grading.

One this I don't procrastinate over is my practice. I come every day, pretty much without fail. I am glad I am unwilling to put it off, but lately, I've been very distracted. I keep forgetting poses in 1st series which I have been doing for over 5 years. I will get to a point and realize that I skipped over some pose, and sometimes it is one I love. I first noticed this the day I forgot garbha pidasana. I love that pose, but I got to the very end, and did my jump back out of padmasana and realized it was the first time I had done that. I had simply forgotten the pose and since then, I feel like I have forgotten a pose each and every day. Sometimes I remember the poses, but I find myself sucked into someone else's adjustment or feedback. The other day I was saying the closing chant and the teacher said something quietly and I forgot where I was. It is getting pretty ridiculous. 

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​The silliest part is, I know that if I just stopped procrastinating in my life, I would be less stressed and as a result, I would probably be more focused in my practice. When I tell my friends that I am feeling stressed they often joke that I should do something about it like yoga (since they know that I already do it every day). The other day a friend asked me to imagine how stressed I would be if I didn't do yoga every day, and I can't even imagine. I am so thankful for my practice because in so many ways it soothes my soul. I will fully admit that I was excessively thankful that today was a moon day (yep, you are reading something I wrote a week ago), but I'm even more thankful that tomorrow I will get to get up at 4am and spend time on my mat. And now, it is officially time to stop procrastinating and get to grading those essays...unless I can think of something else to do first ;)
-Lissa