I hate mornings. I loathe them. I am not a morning person. When I get to work (after my practice) I’m often still cranky. However, I get up at roughly 4 am each weekday so that I can practice before I go to work, and I’ll start getting up earlier if I get more poses and my practice takes longer than it is currently. But I don’t like it. I set many alarms. I have a sunrise alarm clock that goes off at 4am, and a back up on my cell phone set for 4:05, and sometimes I still hit snooze. I get up and come every day, but that first 10 minutes is the worst. I hate it, but I do it, because I hate how I feel when I don’t practice more.
I love chocolate. And pizza. And tater tots. Did I mention chocolate? And I hate to cook. I do my best to buy good foods and I try to cook for myself, but I often find myself eating toast with peanut butter for dinner (okay, let’s be honest, this is my go-to dinner). In fact, I love our Sunday breakfast club (we go somewhere for a yummy breakfast after Sunday’s led class--you should come) because that means I can still have toast for dinner. I do my best when it comes to what I eat, but I could be doing better. I am hopeful Jen’s Healthy...ish with Jen O. will inspire me to cook more. If nothing else, it will give me some yummy things to dream about.
I am sometimes afraid to get a new pose. I love the challenge of ashtanga and I love working on my practice. Recently, I stopped doing second series so that I could focus my attention on standing up from urdhva dhanurasana and drop backs. After a few months of really hard work, the decision paid off and I got these things that have been my nemesis for many years. I have been slowly adding my second series poses back in, but I am getting close to poses I dread: laghu vajrasana and kapotasana. I am not looking forward to it, and I would like to avoid it, but I’ll do it. I may be a little scared, but getting over that fear is one of the best things about this practice. I am always being asked to grow, so I’ll be off to face my fears.